Today’s book is a YA featuring a trans protagonist. While I was not hugely fond of this book, there were parts I enjoyed, and it is a good read until the climax of the story..hence the 3 stars rating.
If I Was Your Girl is written in the present day, and in Amanda‘s POV. It is written by a transgender author about a transgender main character named Amanda who’s in her senior year of high school.
After she was bullied and beaten in a women’s bathroom, she moves to Lambertville to live with her father who didn’t really cope well with her transition.
Now that she can be herself without worrying about people’s reaction and be known as Amanda, she makes friends and starts dating this guy called Grant. But, secrets don’t stay secret for long, right? How will her friends and boyfriend react when they know the truth?
There are some stuff I found troublesome while reading, like the chapters; They skip back and forth between present and a few years ago back when Amanda was Andrew. That had gotten me dizzy trying to remember the time shift if it’s in present day or not.
Another thing is this Bee girl (Amanda’s first friend). She’s a Bisexual character that develops a crush on Amanda but then outs her when she’s rejected, in front of the entire school at Homecoming. (won’t say more so I wouldn’t spoil the whole thing)
The third thing is this book had an open ending…I, personally, don’t do good with open endings, I find it problematic!! I like a finished book that states an obvious ending.
Lastly, the author Meredith Russo acknowledges at the end of her book that this is a fictionalised look at ONE transgender experience!!
“I wasn’t sorry I existed any more. I deserved to live. I deserved to find love. I knew now – I believed, now – that I deserved to be loved.”
If you’re curious enough and like such themes, give it a go 🙂