A new kind of big-hearted novel about being seen for who you really are.
Amanda Hardy is the new girl in school. Like anyone else, all she wants is to make friends and fit in. But Amanda is keeping a secret, and she’s determined not to get too close to anyone.
But when she meets sweet, easygoing Grant, Amanda can’t help but start to let him into her life. As they spend more time together, she realizes just how much she is losing by guarding her heart. She finds herself yearning to share with Grant everything about herself, including her past. But Amanda’s terrified that once she tells him the truth, he won’t be able to see past it.
Because the secret that Amanda’s been keeping? It’s that at her old school, she used to be Andrew. Will the truth cost Amanda her new life, and her new love?
Meredith Russo’s If I Was Your Girl is a universal story about feeling different?and a love story that everyone will root for.
Hello friendly bookworms,
Today’s book is a YA featuring a trans protagonist. While I was not hugely fond of this book, there were parts I enjoyed, and it is a good read until the climax of the story..hence the 3 stars rating.
If I Was Your Girl is written in the present day, and in Amanda‘s POV. It is written by a transgender author about a transgender main character named Amanda who’s in her senior year of high school.
After she was bullied and beaten in a women’s bathroom, she moves to Lambertville to live with her father who didn’t really cope well with her transition.
Now that she can be herself without worrying about people’s reaction and be known as Amanda, she makes friends and starts dating this guy called Grant. But, secrets don’t stay secret for long, right? How will her friends and boyfriend react when they know the truth?
There are some stuff I found troublesome while reading, like the chapters; They skip back and forth between present and a few years ago back when Amanda was Andrew. That had gotten me dizzy trying to remember the time shift if it’s in present day or not.
Another thing is this Bee girl (Amanda’s first friend). She’s a Bisexual character that develops a crush on Amanda but then outs her when she’s rejected, in front of the entire school at Homecoming. (won’t say more so I wouldn’t spoil the whole thing)
The third thing is this book had an open ending…I, personally, don’t do good with open endings, I find it problematic!! I like a finished book that states an obvious ending.
Lastly, the author Meredith Russo acknowledges at the end of her book that this is a fictionalised look at ONE transgender experience!!
“I wasn’t sorry I existed any more. I deserved to live. I deserved to find love. I knew now – I believed, now – that I deserved to be loved.”
If you’re curious enough and like such themes, give it a go 🙂